What is there to be afraid of?
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.”—Marianne Williamson
I have had fears in my life for sure; mice, spiders, swimming in the ocean, and writing for this blog. So the question remains how to face them. Living deep in the Indiana woods there was no escaping mice and spiders. Reluctantly, I learned how to coexist. Now, living in coastal North Carolina I am learning to be in the ocean without my knees knocking. Just yesterday I caught my first wave on a surf board. So here I sit today ready to conquer this blog post!
Honestly, it is not the blog I am afraid of or how people will respond to it. It is that feeling of something greater than me is happening through my words. Leaving Indiana and my position as a telephone triage nurse left me with space to rediscover my passions. For me, being home with kids has been the most rewarding experience of my life, but at times has left me feeling personally lost and inadequate. Deep down, though, I feel I am bound to do great things outside of being a mom. I believe we are ALL here to do great things with our time on the earth. We just have to figure out where and turn ourselves in that direction. I had a conversation with my husband last summer about my plans after the kids went back to school. I mentioned that I had no desire to return to nursing and that I wanted to actively research what opportunities existed with the organizations and companies I had been supporting through the years. On my list was The Body Shop, Ten Thousand Villages, Product(Red), Oxfam, The Full Belly Project, and ONE. I was not exactly sure what I was looking for, but knew this is what I needed to do. For those who believe in the “law of attraction” they will understand then how it came to be that just two weeks later there was a ONE documentary screening right here in Wilmington! Of course I was there and later that evening received an email asking if I would be interested in volunteering as a ONE Congressional District Leader.
For many reasons saying “yes” was frightening, then I went to the quote by Marianne Williamson and continued reading…”We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous. Actually, who are you not be. You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. We were born to manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us, it’s in everyone. As we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others”. So here I am visiting Washington D.C., meeting Members of Congress, volunteering at U2 concerts, and traveling to Kenya. This is where I am meant to be and this is only the beginning of where I am going. What is there to be afraid of?
We all come to the realization that are kids grow up and that we must carve out an identity for ourselves otherwise we'd be lost. I love how you are finding out who you are through the work you are doing. The passion you have for ONE was clearly evident the very first moment I met you.
I am so proud to have been the one hosting that screening that provided your launch pad! We were all in the right place in the right time for magic to happen for you. I have a birthday party to attend on Saturday for 2 former students…but please save me a shirt! Size 2X if you have one. Lauren never got me the package of things that should have been available at the screening but got lost, and now she's off on other adventures.
Excellent, I whole heartily agree with you that finding and directing your energy into such a worthy cause brings fulfillment and many blessings to everyone involved. Your Friend Paul Staten